Heart Scan results and not giving up...

The heart scan doc wanted me to take showed positive for damage, so she's taken me completely off the chemo drugs for 6 weeks. She said that the heart can heal, so I'm thinking positive in that area while at the same time, continuing to envision the tumor shrinking...without the chemo. :) Yes! I believe in miracles and that medical drugs are not the ONLY way to fight this thing. The power of faith and the mind, the spirit, the soul, the entirety of who we are as living beings can work against negative cowardly diseases and push them back into nothing...making them disappear. Cancer is a bully...plain and simple. When you face a bully head-on, fight back, get in their faces, they shrink away and nurse their wounds. Once they realize they can't control you, they go into 'ignore' mode. Cancer is a bully, it's a coward...it attacks unseen, thinking it can get the upper hand. I say phooey on that! We *can* have doubts about fighting it, that's normal, but we can also find uplifting ways to be able to pump us up and get us back into the ring. No way am I throwing in the towel. The damage to the heart was not unexpected. When first starting these drugs, the doctor informed me that they could affect the heart. Okay. That's just God, the Universe, telling me to take a step back and let THEM take care of it, both the heart and the cancer. My angels, God, the Holy Spirit, Jesus, even my ancestors...I feel my grandma and papa with me so close and offering their support. It's not a step back...it's a means to re-energize in order to get back into the game and continue going to the next level.
It's gonna be okay. It IS okay.
My only concern? Now that I have my appetite back in full swing, I'm concerned about gaining back the weight I lost. LOL! I actually like being between 145-150 pounds, even though I got here mostly by the chemo killing my appetite. (I'd lost 40 pounds before being diagnosed with cancer.) It's a far cry from the 239 I was over a year ago. Stocking up on fruits and veggies and whole grains, omega-3 eggs and spinach, oatmeal, nuts and all sorts of yogurt. I can maintain this weight for 6 weeks. You betcha!

Rock on!